This is the first time I have had a weigh in on Wednesday’s. Since Roni’s DietBet started on a Wednesday it just makes sense to have my official weigh in day be Wednesday this time around. Although I am a daily weigher, I still like to keep track on my blog of my weekly progress. It keeps me in check. And here is why. Last Wednesday I weight 197.8. This morning I weighed in at 193.6 for a loss of 4.2 pounds! Awesome, right!?! Well, yesterday I weighed less. It should would have been a bigger number if I hadn’t had so much sodium last night. I was pissed. Not because I saw a small gain, because I expect that, but because I didn’t want to take responsibility for what I ate. I think I underestimated the amount of calories in my dinner last night. I hate when I do that. But I ate something I know is not the best for me. I chose to. And I have to be ok with that. I am not perfect. I never will be perfect. It’s just a fact. I am ok now. I am no longer upset at myself or the scale. It was a fleeting 10 minute fit of just being plain upset. If it is going to fluctuate that much because of one meal, then what is the point? I was looking in the fridge, trying to decide what to eat for breakfast. I wanted to give up, have a bowl of cereal. We have no milk. Maybe some toast? Thankfully my logical side won this fight and I had a cup of coffee and sat down to read blogs instead. I will eat a sensible breakfast, probably a smoothie. I have calmed. I know I am doing the right thing. My body feels better. The weight will come off. I need to focus on feeling healthy. It’s hard.
I am really excited to be embarking on this journey this time around. I don’t feel like I “have” to do anything. I am doing it because I want to. Because when I eat right I feel better. I am a better mom to my kids. I will be a better wife for my husband. I will proudly accept my 4.2 pound loss this week and continue on my way. I am expecting a couple books in the mail today (hopefully!) and I can’t wait to read them. One is a Wheat Belly cookbook, so I will have to healthy gluten free recipes to choose from (and yes it is possible to have unhealthy gluten free recipes, gluten free does not mean healthy). I also picked up the book It Starts With Food and I am seriously so excited to dive into that one!
I am on a mission to eat as best as I can. I am tired of not knowing what is going into my body. In our society we have become so dependent on others to tell us what is good for us. It’s time for me to go out and find out for myself. I believe we live in a society that thrives on the unhealthy and the overweight. There is so much more money to be made on tho unhealthy than there is on the healthy. I want to educate myself as much as I can on what I really should be putting in my body. It’s time for me to take responsibility for myself and my kids. I am excited for what this year has to offer us.
So on that note, I will have a good day. I will put my all out on the table today and be the best me I can. Today. That’s all I need to do. One day, one moment at a time.
